Intimidation

I don't know if it is funny or sad... People tend to find me intimidating. I don't find myself intimidating... Why do they? So far, I have been told I'm intimidating due to my looks, being opinionated, standing up for my beliefs, having a brain, and managing my life as I do. I was once dubbed "Little Miss Hot to Trot" at a job because of these character traits. What gives? Why do people attempt to pull me down when I try and lift the world up? Mind you, I can be a stark, raving Bitch but if you meet that side of me, it is usually due to causing or attempting to cause harm to myself or the ones I love...

I walk around with this target painted on my back... I didn't put it there but I live with it. Rather than befriend the intimidating one, people tend to try and tear me down. Why? My heart is kind and my intentions are pure. I have been coined "spoiled and stuck-up" more times than I care to think about... If people only knew the truth. The things that people call "spoiled, stuck-up, and intimidating" are just the scars... I have spent everyday of my life in one battle or another... The thing about scars is they create a think lining not easily penetrated but underneath the scars tends to be painful...

So in the future, before you judge me, get to know me. Be kind to me and I will be kind to you in return. Talk to me. I am very open to feedback. If I offend you, which i frequently do, let me know. We may not agree but we can agree to disagree...

My Mind - Poem

I have a mind of my own

One that wasn't bought and can't be sold

It holds my goals

It holds my dreams

It knows my smiles and my screams

I tell it things I tell no one

It knows my fears and my fun

It knows my laughs

It knows my tears

It fills the space between my ears

I have a mind of my own

One that wasn't bought and can't be sold

Family

Blood is thicker than water but blood just means people came from the same gene pool. Having the same blood endangers one to inherit problems, including: Mental illness, emotional issues, and physical/ health problems. I say blood does not constitute a family. Blood type and genes don't make people care about each other. Blood type and genes don't tend to an ailing individual when they are sick or hurt. People tend to other people.

Titles don't make people family either. Mom, Dad, Aunt, Uncle, Grandparents... These are just titles given to family members. If the person truly cares, the title becomes very special. If the person doesn't care the title doesn't mean anything. Blood and genes do not entitle individuals to these titles... People earn these titles by showing love to other people.

Love is what makes families. Time is what strengthens bonds. I love you because I choose to love you... I care for you because I make the choice to care. Caring is not always easy, but I did not make my decision based on simplicity. I fight with you because I want what is best for you. I love you unconditionally... I won't turn my back on you when I don't like a choice you have made. I will be here to pick up the pieces if ever you should fall. You are my family.